Each year I choose a word, or I wait to see what God lays on my heart. For 2021, He has told me my word is
This does not surprise me at all.
2020 was HORRID… so much happened personally and professionally. I remember so many days just withdrawing into myself (or a book or video game) because I could not handle it. I remember waking up with blinding tension headaches from clenching my jaw so tight at night. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to go back to sleep. I remember my anxiety pain being so severe sometimes that it hurt to breathe.
Is it a wonder what my word for 2021 is?!?
COVID-19 made my RN world spin out of control somedays – or it felt like it. Daily, and sometimes hourly changes. Having little to do while management tried to figure out how to handle this. Then, being asked to catch up on 6 weeks worth of work in 4 weeks. Although this “new normal” is getting easier, I still miss being able to drop in to see a client when they are on my mind – yes I can still call but there is just something about face-to-face.
I have been very blessed to find clients for my virtual assistant business and have been able to keep them – thank you, Lord! It was to the point where I was feeling quite overwhelmed at times. Did I take on too much? Quite possibly. It would not be the first time or the last, I am sure.
Now saying that, one of my clients and I had to make the difficult decision to terminate our business relationship. It was not an easy decision to make but the peace I felt after it was done has been amazing. I learned a lot about myself as well as what I want for myself in my business through working with this client and for that I will always be grateful.
The challenges personally will be brought forward in later blog posts. My mind, body and spirit as a person, a parent, and a Christian have been challenged, stereotypes have been brought forward and have challenged me unlike anything else.
All I know is God is still in control and He is giving me more “…peace that passes all understanding…” (Phillipians 4:7) than I have ever known and He is asking me to remain in that peace no matter what gets thrown at me.
Do you have a word of the year? Share it with me in the comments.
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